Monday, May 29, 2006

Empress of Cysts!

Do not worry my royal courtesans. I have not forsaken you. It is I, the Queen of Postponement, now officially adding to my title: Empress of Cysts!

Just got back from the RE to find that after 18 days on BCPs the very same cyst that postponed us last month has tripled in size. It's a whopper, as they say in the common language. This is only to be expected for a monarch of my veneration and status.

The weird (good) thing is that it's not bothering me at all - pysically at least. However, it might very well explain some of my increased anxiety/depressive feelings this past month. If this puppy is producing lots of hormones it would be the answer to a great deal of consternation. I have been working weekly with the Imperial Therapist and feel that I definitely have things I need to work out/adjust in my life, etc. And this is helping! But there seems also to be an element of chemical imbalance that is frustrating. Could this be the answer?

WE WILL FIND OUT! Because I am going in tomorrow morning at 6AM to aspirate the fucker (sorry, that's not very regal of me, but it's either I swear at the cyst or the next nurse who wands me loses her head) and begin stims. Now, of course, it will be tough to decipher whether my mental state improves with the aspiration because I will at the same time begin pumping my body full of Follistim and Repronex. God only knows what these new chems will do. Any chance these drugs will make me feel GOOD? (C'mon people, throw me a line here...)

This was not unexpected, so I am not freaked. Even an Empress doesn't enjoy spending a big wad of money for an extra medical procedure, but at this point, I am ready to do anything to just be able to finally start IVF cycle #1. These months of postponement have been a royal drag.

I'll update tomorrow with tales of anesthesia, aspiration and my magesterial protocol.

ALL RISE! Hear ye hear ye: the Empress is now going to the beach. Later.

20 comments:

soralis said...

I am sorry about the cyst! I hope the aspiration is painless.

Take care and all the best.

sube said...

Yes, definitely time to get rid of that sucker. You show it who's boss, er, queen.

I can't really say the stims made me feel *good* but they certainly didn't make me feel bad. Hoping you at least achieve a neutral state. Good luck with the procedure tomorrow.

MoMo said...

Oh...I was so hoping that the damn cyst was gone. Good luck on the procedure...I will be thinking of you.

As Sube said, the stims didn't make me feel bad--which I think is a positive.

Lut C. said...

Oh man, that's rough.

Good luck and take care.

Lisa said...

I hope everything goes well for you tomorrow - I'll be checking in for an update.

Beagle said...

Oh bugger! Damn Cyst!

Good Luck with the aspiration. Then onwards and upwards.

Oh yes, and sure, the hormone injections will make you feel super (am I supposed to do this with a straight face? Never mind, you can't see my face).

Your DH on the other hand may experience mild side effects (Bitchy wife attacks for example).

They're not that bad, really. I found Clomid to be worse, symptom wise.

wannabmom214 said...

Stupid cyst!!! I'm glad you are getting rid of the stinker tomorrow.

I don't really remember the stims having a strong negative effect on emotions... if anything, I was (fairly) leveled out on them. I ended up feeling very sore toward the end, but that wasn't so bad - I just walked with a little waddle and wore fat pants! LOL!

Good luck tomorrow! Bring on the stims!!!!!

S said...

SHIT!! That fucker cyst! That's right-off with it's head! Hope the aspiration goes well tomorrow...and that you get some damn good drugs out of it too.

I'm taking Follistim now-really, it's not so bad-you might get a little moody and bloated towards the end (and you get MONSTER EWCM too). Tell the hubs to make sure not to take anything you say (or scream)personally. And, the good thing is that you can blame every bad mood you're in on them-yay!!

Good luck, and welcome to the Stims club!

Sunnie said...

All Hail the Queen! I hope that during the aspiration there are some suitable royal living quarters awaiting your return...replete with chocolate and dancing men :)

Good luck sweetie!

Bea said...

Some people do actually say the stims make them feel good! All that lovely, giddy oestrogen.

Me? Well, mainly I remember feeling anxious. So no change, really.

Bea

Fertility Faux Pas said...

Count me in as someone who felt better on stims. Well, at least better than I felt on Lupron! I'm sure just getting this cycle started will help you to feel better. Nobody likes being stuck in limbo.

Thinking of you today and hoping the aspiration went well...

Jill said...

I'm so sorry about the stubborn cyst. How frustrating! I'm glad that it can be taken care of through aspiration, and I hope the procedure goes smoothly and isn't too uncomfortable.

Rachel said...

That totally sucks about the cyst. Glad it's going to be poked into oblivion with a needle. Or does that sound scary. Either way, I hope it disappears and that you will finally be able to move forward. Luck be with you!

Sunny Jenny said...

Hope you're doing well! Let us know how it went your Empness!

Just another Jenny said...

Well I am glad that you can at least finally get started. 3 times the size? I hope it all went well today.

Sarah said...

Good luck with the aspiration (yuck)! Hope that you are back on track in no time for IVF #1!

Jo said...

I hope all went well for you today, Oh Mighty Empress!

The chemical imbalance could be a big part of what you are feeling...cyst just SUCK..that and having to wait to start your cycle for 3 months.

I am glad you will finally be able to start. Let The Games Begin!

Mellie said...

Hope the aspiration was pain free and that you've gotten the all-clear to start the stims. Good luck!

fisher queen said...

I hope all is aspirated and waiting for Her Highness to commence stims. I have to tell you, Follistim actually did put me in a good frame of mind. But I'm weird anyway, so don't count on my exxperience.

Kate said...

I hope you are able to finally get this cycle started. But be mentally prepared, the IVF road can be even bumpier (I'm told). Hugs to you!