Saturday, September 16, 2006

Not lookin' good

I am 12dp5dt. We're still away from home on vacation, and today I jumped into a store, grabbed an e.p.t. and peed. Negative. It was not first morning urine (big glass of juice maybe 3 hours before), but at this point it should not matter. Beta is in 2 days.

I am disapointed but so far doing ok. It's been a weird couple of weeks. Did not feel anything unusual until about 7dp5dt when I started getting very mild cramps and nipples stinging, especially at night. Breasts seemed bigger. No spotting at all, no bleeding.

I had the nipple twinges and mild cramps on and off until about 11dp5dt when those two "symptoms" suddenly stopped. I suppose I still have the occasional twinge, but really, it even seems like my breasts shrunk back down a little.

I had a little wild hope that maybe I was preg with more than one and a multiple was dropping off, therefore causing a drop in symptoms... but now I am pretty sure it's a done deal.

I will test tomorrow morning with first morning urine with the other stick that came in the pack. But tomorrow will be 13dp5dt (equivalent to 18dpo) and I should be obviously positive even on a crap-ass HPT by now. Beta is on Monday AM. At least I will be prepared for the inevitable. Need to make sure there is no ectopic and all that.

The hard thing is that I want to stop taking the progesterone and estrogen so that my period will come. But on the tiniest chance that there is still any hope, I can't really do that until the beta result.

Send your "Negative HPT but positive beta" miracle stories now... but know that I am currently disappointed but hanging strong. If I can remain so, this will be a victory either way.

12 comments:

NikkiM said...

Still hoping for positive results for you... I don' think I'll do those evil sticks, I've done too many in the last 2 years of trying to even look at them again !!

Bea said...

Two more days... the only thing I believe in is a blood test beta.

Bea

Anonymous said...

Pee sticks are evil. I'm so sorry it was negative.

Pamplemousse said...

Hang in there for the beta result!

soralis said...

I hate pee sticks... hoping the beta has better results.

Take care

spark said...

Sorry about the pee stick. Hope you have some late implanters and the beta has a better result.

Anonymous said...

Pee Sticks are EVIL!! I am sorry I was so hoping this was it, but lets wait till Beta.

Family Ties said...

You said it. Send your stories....I am exhibit A :) I was negative at the HPT and had a positive beta.

I can only hope the same for you, sweetie. Hang in there and enjoy the rest of your vaca.

xoxoxo

Serenity said...

Evil pee sticks. I am sorry... and am hoping for the best for you.

*hug*

Thalia said...

Sorry, sadly I don't have a miracle story for you. There are a couple - suz (pregnant with twins, nothing on an hpt til 16po - sorry yes I know you are past this now), and brooklyn girl who I mentioned on my blog today. BUt I don't know of any others that would not have showed up on an hpt at 18dpo. I am sorry.

We've just got to get through this til the next time.

Twisted Ovaries said...

I keep checking in hoping you're ok...

ellie said...

I am sorry- it would be nice to have a positive. I hope the best for you!