Sunday, April 02, 2006

Pre-day 22: Happy to See AF (for once)

Yesssss. Bleeding. Hello Monthly Visitor, may I offer you a fresh and delicious tampon? And this ain't no April Fool's joke. I have been off the BCPs for 3 days and here we are. Excellent Smithers, things are going exactly as planned.

We are on the launching pad to begin this first IVF cycle. A FE nurse called to remind me "no more pills" a couple days ago and confirmed me for tomorrow's injection instruction and beginning shots. I will post a thorough protocol after I've been schooled.

Well guys, I feel optimistic, relaxed, and... thoroughly committed to enjoying my life aside from IVF. Because, yes, I have a (really good) life aside from this. I admit that I have become tunnel-visioned at times about TTC, but I remain a happy person, open-minded and ready for what comes my way. We will do whatever it takes (within reason) to become pregnant and have a child to raise, but some things in life you just can't "make happen," you can only open the doors. And you know what, I am actually ok with that. For real. It doesn't mean I want it any less than anyone else, it just means that I know I'll be ok, and still whole, if it doesn't happen. That's just my truth.

The sun is shining, there are flowers all over, life is good!

If you're reading and in a different emotional place right now, I hope you're better soon. I take nothing for granted. I promise. And I send you a big hug with a virtual flower.


Thalia said...

Glad you are in such a good space - I hope it stays that way!

YouGuysKnow said...

hi Thalia - no kidding. me too.

Sunny Jenny said...

How exciting! Not too long now and you'll be waiting like me to see if the embies stick! Isn't it strange to be so excited for AF!

soralis said...

What a great outlook! Take care and good luck with your cycle.